Evaluation...

Well, the past few days have kinda been rough. I get so exhausted from having so much going on, and feeling like my life is a constant challenge, physically, emotionally and spiritually.

Thankfully, I drowned myself in scripture, in daily devotionals {seriously the only therapy I believe in, no matter how much I don't want to do it}....until I find the answer I am looking for.....

And guess what I found?? I found out I was guilty of re-evaluating God.....it's not something I like to admit, because it makes me feel weak in my faith - but I know it's something we ALL experience. Let me tell you what I mean by 're-evaluating God'. When you start questioning his promises...."ok God, where are these finances you promised..." "where is this marriage I'm supposed to have..." "where is this life I long to live..." The distractions of life, the hurt/disappointment from man.....it really can cause a wedge in your relationship with God!

What I forgot was that God is not missing it....and He is not failing! I had the 'ah-hah' moment that if I'm going to re-evaluate anyone, it needs to be M-E. And if I do that, and I still can't find out what the problem is....then I simply ASK GOD! "God, give me the wisdom to evaluate myself, my life....what am I doing wrong? PLEASE show me..."

And when it is revealed to me, it is something I need to change quickly! I am to stand firm and honor God with my words, my actions.....He is listening to me when the pressure is on.....what is he hearing?

The thing we need to be reminded of, is the example and testament of others. Those with great faith, and great testimonies of what God has done in their life have been through some awful, trying, pressing, horrible STUFF! We can't go 'through' anything if we stop.....that's why we say 'going through' because you can only get to the other side of your circumstances that way.